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i cant help but feel like everyone is just a little bit corrupt and selfish.
everything just points to ideals but nothing that is truly attainable
but should i feel sorry or just shrug it off as part of humanity?
history repeats itself and certain vibes linger on.
i do not affiliate myself with either caucasian or polynesian backgrounds.
i rather see myself as grey. without color.
i do not want to be associated with either for their lack of scholarly motivation.
in high school the polys got a bad rep for that and now
the haoles only come here for beach.
im not either. i dont like being associated as a girl from utah
for their "pious" behavior to the extent of living in a bubble, blind to the outside world.
but its not just them. its not just that caucasians were always conquerors and seeking to increase their own, forcing beliefs and way of life, taking away other cultures...
"business" people at the very least. power struggles have existed forever. and it wasnt always a race, sometimes it was religion. and i dont want to be associated with that. the self- righteous communities. no thank you. i can admit that im not perfect... and i dont close my mind to the rest of the world who is not perfect either. though i dont adopt their doctrines, ill listen and try to understand. its the least i can do, we are all human.
but more than all these religious claims to kindness and charity that are hardly met...
the proud and rich in material things. what do they do?
even those at a lower economic status dont realize how good they have it. or they do and arent willing to share.
why do i have this in mind you may ask
well. spanish class we were talking about legislation in arizona
border laws.
and a girl says "well, i feel bad for them, but we have to keep in mind our own children. we cant let our schools be poor because of them"
Selfish. selfish selfish. i understand that. you must think about yourself to an extent, but havent you heard of sacrifice? its not like your money for your children will go to any good anyhow. they come to college and go to the beach, flunking out and only supplying the king with his share from tuition. what was the point of that? you, girl, who i know just got her hair done recently at a salon, and spoke about your shopping spree at nordstroms... that aint cheap. i grew up on less then you very obviously, and i have learned still to give up what little i have, share a bit. what do you do? go stand on those pillars like those ppl in the scriptures like "thank you lord that i am rich and can live a lavish life instead of being like that homeless person i see below me" ignorant.
i understand. the fear of criminals. the fear of being taken advantage of. i also like worldly things, but its the attitude you have and the efforts to make a difference. you guard your riches like its your life. back in the day, philosophers spoke in public FOR FREE. people home school you know. if you are getting a degree, you can make up for what your children dont have at school. you can donate YOUR extra for that purpose. maybe you can even teach. man thats what teachers do. they know their minds are worth more than they get paid yet they understand the worth of passing on intelligence so it is not utterly wasted.
if you fear criminals, you should fear your government. it is corrupt. there is corruption everywhere. fear yourself. if you dont think you are corrupt now... you very well may be. one day.
stop judging. its pissing me off.
selfish.

"the line"

Liars are thrust to hell...
however,
is it possible for a person not to lie?
does everyone know everything about you?
is omitting truths also lying?
for example, yes, those jeans make you look fat
lawyers often lie to prove cases
corruption... the government lies to the public all the time
false advertising
its everywhere. lying is part of life.
im just a little bit... baffled as to if lies are EVER okay?
like on the show "lie to me"
thats where this kinda started
would you lie to someone or keep something from them if you knew it was going to save your life?
or if made them do their job better which is necessary.
would you lie to protect your family from going to prison?
would you lie and tell the detective their boyfriend was okay (when reality they were in the hospitol) so they could concentrate and finish the case?
if you started developing feelings for your boss and you knew he was into you too, would you "lie" to yourselves and each other to keep it professional AND more importantly, to stay loyal to your spouce EVEN if your spouse was a recovering cocaine addict with whom you have problems with daily?
Ethics ethics ethics. maybe i need to take that class. or read some articles:
http://www.bbc.co.uk/ethics/lying/
http://www.scu.edu/ethics/publications/iie/v6n1/lying.html
http://olinethicist.blogspot.com/2006/03/is-lying-wrong.html
http://www.nytimes.com/1997/07/02/us/the-ethics-of-lying.html

ill maybe do a follow up after i do some reading myself
but i will finish with that idea.
they said there was a line where investigators have to decide when to cross it...
where they know what the other person doesnt want them to know
and they have to decide whether or not to exploit it or even bring it up.
when you know the other person is lying, or you know there is something there.
the elephant in the room if you will...
do you acknowledge it?
im kinda in this situation right now. *shrug*
figure it out with time i guess.

A little about me

A lot of things on this blog will probably be religious. My bias will obviously be from a Mormon background, but I'm not going to represent my faith (necessarily) because maybe some of the things I put would offend them or are "false doctrine" (i dont know what im going to say that would fall under that category). Just remember that this is about thoughts and ideas. I'm not preaching for or against anything, just stating my views.

I think I am just a natural thinker and have now come to the conclusion that this is why I like school. I don't like doing school work, and I don't like being in class with annoying college kids. I do however, like to think and learn. A lot of my blogs are philosophical and maybe slightly poetic in nature. They aren't a whole lot like the normal journal entries. I've noticed that my ones that are, I am ashamed of and think "wow I was a really dumb kid back then" and the ones that are more thought provoking, I still agree with and can stand reading over.

I think it is hard to know the nature of human beings, and the reason why it interests me so, is because I still am trying to understand myself. The religious aspect is important on my philosophical views because religion states an ethical code of values that people of that faith adhere to and when they do not, have a sense of guilt. Also, philosophy is almost a search for truth and understanding, where faith claims to know truth. Though I have my faith and beliefs that effect the way I think about things, I feel it is important to know of other people's beliefs- not only to seek understanding and harmony with others, but to seek universal truth. (The truths that faiths believe... kinda weird concept... sorry if I am not making any sense) The reason for this is to show where we are more alike than different... unifying the world instead of agitating it? Yes yes.

That was all in case you were wondering... or annoyed with the copious amount of religious content in my so called "philosophy" blog

remember "the Secret" ?

Thank you Felipe for this video, and also for now my knowledge of the RSA youtube.... definitely love the RSAnimate.
This one is really awesome cause I liked the idea of the Secret, (the law of attraction, basically if you havent heard of it before)
but this shows that it was kinda made to make people think positively anyways watch this










Okay anyways. Reality came to me because I get emails from the Secret.com (the secret scrolls oooooh). I usually like them because they are kinda like empowering quotes, but one day I got this one that basically said that if you think of ways to try and get something, you are complaining to the universe that you dont have it, so you will never get it... so you have to do nothing as if you already have it and the universe will bring it to you.
Really?
I just have to sit here and money will appear on my lap?
fantastic.

hmm interesting

i really like this song

Shall we start over?

Okay, well
I've been thinking about this for a while.
I have lots of blog space online EVERYWHERE
and the only person that has probably read everything is my boyfriend.
And while blog space is becoming infinite because of technology expansion,
the amount of what I would consider to be useful or worthwhile blogs has declined.
I can see use for family blogs if the user has a lot of family and friends online, and is looking for
an easy way to keep record of important events and pictures. Fine. But maybe it should be private?
Privacy is something less important these days or people don't realize how PUBLIC the internet is.
It used to be a bad idea to put your last name down on things online
but now
people post up addresses and phone numbers- HOLY CRAP

anyways, I'm sort of digressing from where I wanted to go with this...
okay so a lot of my blogs are private. (What are they? don't worry about it.
If you don't follow it, you don't need to know! In fact you are probably better off not knowing)
Blah
But the reason why This blog has been so random
is I cant figure out what my blog should be about- my public blog at least
It should be something that is at least appealing and worth reading to random strangers right.
Like me, if I click the "next blog" button and come to a random family blog, I dont give a crap! NEXT.
but actually seeing interesting things take place in peoples lives
like survivor stories or just something completely different, I might stop and read a little bit.

So what would people care to read about? Well, Ive kinda thought about these random interesting topics that just pop into my head or are inspired by professors, and so I kinda jotted that down, posted a link (the first ones were part of assignments for an IT class, I think I'll go delete them now...)
and then lately I have been watching students in my piano technique class jot down meticulous notes. I dont take notes in that class at all, but it reminded me of philosopher's notebooks or scientists notebooks, or even musicians notebooks. The human mind is quite an interesting thing and when one discovers something, seems to be an important part of history at least. These are the things we study in classes, and people read them for FUN. And as my contribution to the blogging universe, I thought that perhaps I shall make this into my discovery journal (it already has been I suppose) and those past ideas and blogs altogether one day may make for an interesting book of evolution and discoveries of my mind.

Okay, pause. I know that may sound boring and really egotistical of me to think that my ideas and opinions would claim any validity in this world, but a lot of my thoughts are based on observations, and maybe readers would find interest in certain connections that I draw.

So I guess my blog will be strictly philosophical and opinion. Don't source me as authority on any crap I post neither challenge me based on intellectual level or troll my page (this is assuming I get any more views than my cousin who is following me and my loyal and darling Skipper) because this is merely to get the cogs in my (and perhaps, your) head turning.

Amen.

Sacred Music?

interesting insight. check it out.

http://jmm.aaa.net.au/articles/8564.htm

God Found!

In the lion king. I love these songs.

Music and Laughter don't have to mean anything to give us pleasure.

John Cage!

BEING ZEN???

The Inconvenient Messiah- Jeffery R. Holland

Digital Detachment and Personal Revelation

I must say that ever since I was young I have taken a liking to new technologies. I do feel the little pangs of needing to check my facebook and email as if it was a drug and I need my hourly fix. I used to think I didn't need a cell phone, but then I got so out of the loop, it is now necessary. I wonder how the economy would change if people weren't paying for so many electric services- phones, cable, games... how they might entertain themselves. I wonder if people would be more active and healthy. Self awareness isn't so common... just like common sense. Even with all the information at everyone's fingertips, I don't think that anyone really gets the idea. I don't think we are smarter. We don't really learn as much anymore because we have machines that can do things for us... and in turn, in order to still have jobs as humans, we work to service the machines. Do we depend on machines now? Even as I sit here, I feel like a hypocrite. I'm sure this is why my handwriting stinks. I never take the time out to sit and write on paper. My excuse? time convenience, saving paper, and maybe learning how to spell better. But am I wasting more energy than necessary? I don't know.

I do like being outside, but I'm not an extreme outdoorsy person. Maybe its because I wasn't taught so much to appreciate nature. I do though. And I think John Cage has a really good point that might change my attitude towards 20th century music. He is taking a zen/ quantum physics approach to things. Why things are the way they are... they were meant to be that way so why try to impose your will on it? Why try to make rules out of nature? Nature has no rules... as far as we understand. There are trends, but how often are forecasts 100% correct? Really, that is impossible. Just like perfection. Perfection though is an ideal... when really, we could be perfect right now. Check out some of these vids: