everything just points to ideals but nothing that is truly attainable
but should i feel sorry or just shrug it off as part of humanity?
history repeats itself and certain vibes linger on.
i do not affiliate myself with either caucasian or polynesian backgrounds.
i rather see myself as grey. without color.
i do not want to be associated with either for their lack of scholarly motivation.
in high school the polys got a bad rep for that and now
the haoles only come here for beach.
im not either. i dont like being associated as a girl from utah
for their "pious" behavior to the extent of living in a bubble, blind to the outside world.
but its not just them. its not just that caucasians were always conquerors and seeking to increase their own, forcing beliefs and way of life, taking away other cultures...
"business" people at the very least. power struggles have existed forever. and it wasnt always a race, sometimes it was religion. and i dont want to be associated with that. the self- righteous communities. no thank you. i can admit that im not perfect... and i dont close my mind to the rest of the world who is not perfect either. though i dont adopt their doctrines, ill listen and try to understand. its the least i can do, we are all human.
but more than all these religious claims to kindness and charity that are hardly met...
the proud and rich in material things. what do they do?
even those at a lower economic status dont realize how good they have it. or they do and arent willing to share.
why do i have this in mind you may ask
well. spanish class we were talking about legislation in arizona
border laws.
and a girl says "well, i feel bad for them, but we have to keep in mind our own children. we cant let our schools be poor because of them"
Selfish. selfish selfish. i understand that. you must think about yourself to an extent, but havent you heard of sacrifice? its not like your money for your children will go to any good anyhow. they come to college and go to the beach, flunking out and only supplying the king with his share from tuition. what was the point of that? you, girl, who i know just got her hair done recently at a salon, and spoke about your shopping spree at nordstroms... that aint cheap. i grew up on less then you very obviously, and i have learned still to give up what little i have, share a bit. what do you do? go stand on those pillars like those ppl in the scriptures like "thank you lord that i am rich and can live a lavish life instead of being like that homeless person i see below me" ignorant.
i understand. the fear of criminals. the fear of being taken advantage of. i also like worldly things, but its the attitude you have and the efforts to make a difference. you guard your riches like its your life. back in the day, philosophers spoke in public FOR FREE. people home school you know. if you are getting a degree, you can make up for what your children dont have at school. you can donate YOUR extra for that purpose. maybe you can even teach. man thats what teachers do. they know their minds are worth more than they get paid yet they understand the worth of passing on intelligence so it is not utterly wasted.
if you fear criminals, you should fear your government. it is corrupt. there is corruption everywhere. fear yourself. if you dont think you are corrupt now... you very well may be. one day.
stop judging. its pissing me off.
selfish.
